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Jun. 15th, 2011 10:53 pm[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]
I think, actually, that now we've reached a point where Mother is more nervous than I am. Three weeks ago and I never would have thought it possible, but I've spent so long worrying, now, I simply don't have the energy for it, anymore. Edalene is doing enough worrying for the both of us ... though for different reasons, haha. She's certainly not concerned that she will misstep, or mispeak, or blunder in any one of several thousand different ways it can be done ... but if I cannot do this by now, there is no hope for me, and I will simply have to trust that I am not a hopeless case. I can do all that is required of me flawlessly in my sleep, now, I suspect. It will have to be good enough.
I hope that Edalene is pleased by it all, at the end of the day. I meant precisely what I said; I could care less how we are wed, so long as I have her. But I imagine how she will look, radiant and beaming and happier than she has ever been, the center of the most lavish ceremony Razen has seen in generations, and I just hope ... I hope it is everything that she wishes it to be, and more. I hope it will be a day she remembers always, a day we can look back on together and know, even when we are old and done and our daughters have stolen Razen's eyes from us for good ... that once, we gave them a show and a story that all Atsiria will tell, long after we are gone.
I think, actually, that now we've reached a point where Mother is more nervous than I am. Three weeks ago and I never would have thought it possible, but I've spent so long worrying, now, I simply don't have the energy for it, anymore. Edalene is doing enough worrying for the both of us ... though for different reasons, haha. She's certainly not concerned that she will misstep, or mispeak, or blunder in any one of several thousand different ways it can be done ... but if I cannot do this by now, there is no hope for me, and I will simply have to trust that I am not a hopeless case. I can do all that is required of me flawlessly in my sleep, now, I suspect. It will have to be good enough.
I hope that Edalene is pleased by it all, at the end of the day. I meant precisely what I said; I could care less how we are wed, so long as I have her. But I imagine how she will look, radiant and beaming and happier than she has ever been, the center of the most lavish ceremony Razen has seen in generations, and I just hope ... I hope it is everything that she wishes it to be, and more. I hope it will be a day she remembers always, a day we can look back on together and know, even when we are old and done and our daughters have stolen Razen's eyes from us for good ... that once, we gave them a show and a story that all Atsiria will tell, long after we are gone.
